Day 2 - aka - Day 1 redo

I juiced for most of the day yesterday. Then gave into my first temptation challenge. We (the bf and I) got invited out to dinner with family who were in town from Texas. We went to the most fabulous place called Gemma. One of the most delicious restaurants in NYC. It's not only fantastic food, but the atmosphere is incredible. 

I convinced myself that it was okay to give into the temptation as this is not just a diet for me and my boyfriend, but a lifestyle change. That tomorrow, (today), I would be back on the wagon and juice all day long. Thus, today would be the first real day of the cleanse. So, that is where I was mentally. Last night was fantastic, but today started the real juice fast and diet challenge that I promised myself that I would do.

This morning we started with 3 carrots, 2 apples, and 4 celery. Fresh and tasty! I really enjoy this recipe. It's easy and it keeps my mind from over thinking early in the morning. I had two of these I liked it so much. This along with a lot of water kept me full for most of the day. My stomach started to grumble within an hour or so of finishing my second. It wasn't hunger, but all the nastiness being pushed through my system. I will admit it is not nearly as bad as I thought it would be, but now that I am towards the end of the day... I am starting to really feel foggy headed. For lunch, I made Dracula's Dream Juice

I have never had beets before, so that alone was an interesting experience. I am not sure how much i was tasting of what, but it was very red! It was sweet and didn't make as much as some of the other recipes that I've shared; made just about 24 ounces while the other recipes that I have shared make about 36 ounces (give or take). (sorry about the video quality - recorded on my laptop - will NOT make that mistake again!!) 

I feel okay, not wonderful but not too terrible either. My mind is foggy and I am getting sleepy. I should make another one, but we need to go to the grocery store to get more of the basics (kale,celery,carrots), which we have plans to do at 6pm. My boyfriend on the other hand is also dealing with going through caffeine withdraws. He claims it isn't bad, but I know just from personality changes that he must be suffering. He's actually passed out beside me now. He is feeling the physical affects of the juice fast more than I am. He also ate one piece of bread with peanut butter on it. CHEATING already! I really could not believe it and lost my shit! I flipped out as he chewed and swallowed the deliciousness that I could smell from across the room. I felt so betrayed. He says that I shouldn't be so upset because we are working on a lifestyle change, not just a diet. He is correct in that, but he also made me feel like now I am in this juice fast alone. That even with me here, saying that he can do it and he did not NEED that piece of bread; he just was not strong enough. He gave into the hunger. I am hungry too, don't get me wrong. I wanted that peanut butter more than anything, but I told myself I was going to commit to at least a 5 day juice cleanse. Then we would transition into a month long program of only juice, fruits and vegetables. Slowly over time, I am sure that he will transition into eating some animal products again and so will I occasionally. I really just want to train our bodies that we can feel better without them, that we are strong enough to resist what society tells us and take the facts of science. 
Watching him take a bite of the bread, I felt so betrayed. I felt as if I was in this journey all alone now, that even if he thinks he's here with me. He's not, that one bite shows that he is not 100% committed to this challenge. I know that he is dealing with a lot more the physical aspects of this than I am. Where do I find the balance of being upset and being understanding. I mean, it's not like he walked down the street to McDonald's and just chowed down on a Big Mac. He ate ONE piece of bread with about a tablespoon worth of peanut butter on it! ... really??? Maybe I am feeling the physical affects of this, my inability to control my emotions and lashing out at him were probably more to do with my food intake today than I really want to admit. He's still here with me in this challenge and I think I have to be honest with myself. Regardless of what he chooses over the next few weeks, does not mean that I have to give up on my own challenge. It just would have been nice to have someone suffering beside me and not giving into the temptations on the 1st real day.

So, today has been challenging; but I am strong and will continue on this journey. Thanks for being here with me and reading with me and sharing in this experience.

"The ideal technique for successful fasting is the use of fresh, raw fruit and vegetable juices. On such a diet, the full spectrum of nutrients is supplied in an easily assimilated form, so the digestive tract is able to remain essentially at rest. It is only through the combined use of both cleansing processes, and a very good diet, that one will be able to reach her or his maximal level of physical health and an unclouded consciousness."--Rudolph Ballentine, M.D.